.Monday, March 30, 2009 ' 11:50:00 PM Y

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(Sry ven for putting this. On account of TS, forgive & forget :D)

BYE Mr Lim.
I know you cant wait to leave and board the plane.
Have a safe trip. (:

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Hate it when u dont understand and jump into conclusion.
I'm not doing all these for fun.
I'm doing it to accumulate gd fortune for the family.

Wanted to learn many things and lessen your burden.
Time not at home is not equal to partying outside!

Ok. Felt better after ranting.
100% in everything.
I guess i have not put in 100% in family aspect.
HR in progress.

Tan

. ' 10:48:00 PM Y

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I’m going crazy. I see how they flirt. Kill me now! Shot down and die.

Please don’t think as if I care because I don’t. Sorry but truth hurts. MSN pm dun works on me so you might want to change it to something not so attention seeking. We won’t be locking any of our post because there is nothing to be afraid about. Everything is over isn’t it? You lived well me too! Do whatever you like man, support you all the way!

You’ll be the last person that I’ll ever call, think of and remember again. I think everything is extremely fair now.

If you don’t know a single shit, please don’t guess, ask.

venessa

. ' 12:53:00 AM Y

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Dad's op tml.

Everything will be fine. :)

Few weeks of mc after that.

Shall take it as a bonding time to talk more and know more abt him. :)

Takecare!

Tan

.Sunday, March 29, 2009 ' 6:48:00 PM Y

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sorry for not respecting your post once again... but i somehow blind it. We don't judge situations and we should be sensitive. very sorry. appreciate wad u did for me.

venessa

. ' 1:48:00 AM Y

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What does your birthday says test:

Has lots of extraordinary ideas. Difficult to fathom. Think forward. Unique. Brilliant. Sharp thinking. Fine, strong clairvoyance. make good doctors. Dynamic. Secretive. Inquisitive. Know how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative. amiable. Brave. generous. Patient. Stubborn. hardhearted. Determined. Never quit. Hardly become angry unless provoked. Love to be alone. Think differently. Sharp-minded. Motivate self. Doesn't appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built, tough. Deep love, emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest. Keeps secrets. Cant control emotions. Unpredictable.

True? partly. haha!

I'm too free for such test.

Tan

. ' 12:37:00 AM Y

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TYS

Dear girl,
Stop pretending that you are not sad in front of us, because deep in your heart you are feeling miserable.
Don’t try to act as if you are really strong, smiling in front of us.
It’s okay to be sad, because all of us are human being, all human have feeling.
Just remember once you are tired, there’s always a shoulder for you to lean on. You can always choose either me, ven OR both of us.
We will always be there for you, no matter how busy we are. Just like how you always sacrifice your time to cheer us up whenever we are feeling down.

VK

Dear girl,
Feeling lost and tired now? Even despite trying hard, but still nothing gain back? Tell yourself to follow whatever decision that you feels is right now.
Don’t care about regret in the future. Because I believe there better things out there for you.
Holding on will only make you feels tired. If he really means to be yours, he will be.
Same apply to you, remember there’s always a shoulder for you to lean on too.

To that person that is causing V to be in this manner now:
I don’t know whether you will be reading this. But don’t you feel is only right to say out what you feel rather than holding back? I know you have some reason behind it, but holding it back doesn’t only mean you are the one suffering. You are causing her to suffer with you. So please make up your mind in your words and action.

cYnthia

.Saturday, March 28, 2009 ' 11:43:00 PM Y

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Baby, the time we spent together = happiness

The cup cakes i made for you. Hope you like it.

Is hard to remain happy and say bye to your love ones when he/she is going for a holiday isn’t it?

I dropped my tears when saying bye to my love=(

Our story starts out just like a miracle.

From stranger to couple,

From me disliking you in the first place till loving you now,

From knowing nuts about you, till now I know your favourite word “shut up”=x,

From both of us being shy, till now we talk and laugh like some crazy idiot,

From being a normal caring friend for me, till now being such a sweet bf,

From sending me home as part of manner and courtesy, till now is your daily job,

From trying to make me fall in the train, till now holding on to me to make sure I’m safe,

From being rich, till now you almost goes broke whenever you are with me,

From getting jealous over me, till now I’m yours,

From giving me morning call and sending me to school, till now is one thing you won’t forget to do,

From trying to make me fat, till now you have successfully make me fat :( ,

From shaking hands with me during countdown, till now holding on my hands tightly,

From giving you my number, till now your hp is flooded with my messages and everything about me,

From helping me to carry my heavy school bag, till now you have to carry it for me everyday,

From unknowingly sitting beside and behind me during the batam trip, till now the place beside me is always reserve for you,

From secretly care and concern about me, till now showering me with so much of love,

From just a random of saying to meet up for dinner, till now we meet up for breakfast, lunch, dinner and supper for almost everyday,

From never giving up and kept trying to ask me to be your gf, till now I’m officially Jonathan Chua’s gf:)

Baby, I miss you lots. I can’t wait for your return tomorrow night.

Having sleepless nights from the past few days, making me tossing at my bed, thinking madly of you=(

Every morning, I’ll be so looking forward to your msg. No matter what you sent to me, it will just simple brighten up my day.

As the days goes by, baby you are more and more important to me.

I LOVE YOU!

cYnthia chew

. ' 11:20:00 PM Y

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Mind cafe today.
With tecky, xs & chew. Koh ps last min.
Played true colors and it was really fun.
There was 1 qns which ask: "Better late than never. Which player was often late?"
And as expected, I got the highest vote! :D
I did change k.
I was EARLY today. And in fact 15 mins earlier!
Who says leopard never change its spot.
HAHA. Though it might not be a permanent change, still i was EARLY.
I'm proud of myself. :)

And follow by was a reaction game.
For 2 consecutive round, I WAS THE WINNER!
YEAH!!!! :D:D:D
HAHAHAHA. Called me the fast speed queen.

2 proud achievement today.
But feel lousy when the night is near.
Disscussion meeting not as gd as last month.
Felt guilty for not preparing well.

Give me strength.
Why am i so weak.
I say i'm ok but not really so.

Give me some time and dont ask.
I'll smile deep within my heart.
Cos i'm TYS.

Tan

.Friday, March 27, 2009 ' 9:46:00 PM Y

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My heart skip, when the phone beeps.

Control, control.

Thats the word in my mind.

Dont fall into the trap.

Or you'll always be trap.

Author-Unknown

Tan

. ' 12:13:00 PM Y

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I was shock a moment ago! K, whatever! PLEASE DUN POST UGLY PICTURES! RAHH

When you broke the news to me about you and * I kind of understand how you feel. You said you love us and of course there is no reason for us not to love you back right. Wait let me count, my 7 years of friend. =) don’t worry we’ll always be there for you. Because I never forget you, once, came down to the park when I was crying alone there. You always told me I’m must be like the sunflower that shines and for this I’ll give you warmth.

LOL, when I read back the one above, this message can totally apply to Cynthia as well just that nothing goes wrong with her and her bf. So JON please continue to enjoy your holiday, she will eat fat and won’t talk to guys! -.- Let her miss you like hell, I see her OH I MISS JON face yesterday. Horrible.

I have this pain in the tummy. It has been killing me for a couple of days. scare. I shall eat more or I'll have horse face. I feel like eating durian at gelyang. I feel like going genting. I feel like touching the fishes under the sea and rocket up the sky to sit on the clouds.

I don’t know how should I be feeling now but I think everything is more than enough for me. I’m asking for no more. Tell me your true heart tale and let me feel it once again. Supper at the teh tarik tonite, any takers? Just meet there reach already call me.

venessa

wo bu xing le

.Thursday, March 26, 2009 ' 9:33:00 PM Y

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Siao #1

Siao #2

Siao #3

My edited piece.

Praise me.

HAHA.

ijustlovethemsomuch!

Tan

. ' 2:00:00 AM Y

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Love the talk.

Be it with Bffs or comrades.

Thanks everyone. (:

I'll conquer all mountains.

Never allow myself to fall.

I have all reasons to smile.

Edit: I HATE CHINA MAN.

Be extra careful with yr little brother.

I swear i gonna hurt it and make YOU moan in pain if that ever happens again!

Tan

.Wednesday, March 25, 2009 ' 12:55:00 PM Y

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Mould my heart to be stronger! Am I doing the right thing and making things right? Ok I am. It’s just beautiful dreams that didn’t have proper ending. Nothing to regret because do have good times. JIAYOU XUWEILING! =) run baby run!

venessa
heart please be strong

. ' 1:54:00 AM Y

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Taiwan trip:

I love this picture. My 姑妈 and husband are so loving. (:

______________________________________________

I felt brave last night!

Plucking up every ounce of my chicky bravery to press that button.

I've seen too much sad ending.

Plus good thing usually dont last when it comes to me.

I need a direction.

TYS

.Tuesday, March 24, 2009 ' 9:25:00 PM Y

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NOTE TO SELF:

DON'T FUCKING FALL IN LOVE FOR GOD SAKE!

venessa

. ' 12:30:00 AM Y

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Tornado hit.

Without any sign.

Give me pills.

My heart is weak.

How shall i survive tonight.
Show me my path.
So i wont make the wrong move.

In need of meeting up with BFFs.

.Monday, March 23, 2009 ' 7:29:00 PM Y

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*i feel like eating xing wang again

I have this sudden abundant misses toward granddaddy. No matter what wrongs you’ve done, I’ve always been respecting you strongly. No matter how much you forget, please never forget me because I’ll always remember you. And I’ll always remember the fish tank you filled with fake fishes just to make my day. I love you so dearly.

I failed my btt. Please stop asking and thinking that I’m joking. I’m tired of explaining. WORST, I cabbed there because I’m late. Well, I’m alright since TYS say she wants to pay for my retest! HAHA (thanks for encouraging and NOT meeting up after the trip from Taipei! I want supper at 85! I think I need a huge fat hug!)

Subconscious thoughts is driving me so crazy
I plugged out that coward courage of mine
Spill the tales of whatever that is causing heart wrench
Well prepared for the kiss goodbye
The rest is up to you to guess.

Ok, and I feel so much better now. Who doesn’t fall man.

venessa

.Sunday, March 22, 2009 ' 9:18:00 PM Y

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hello i'm a sick pup today.
teary eyes
flooded nose
messy head

venessa

. ' 7:11:00 PM Y

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HELLO!!!

I'm back. Had pretty fun time in Taiwan.

But guess i'm missing out alot of things here.

Had a life of a pig for the past 5 days.

Eat, sit, slp. Eat, sit, slp.

Now my tummy got 2 extra rounds of fat.

We can jog tgt cyn. :)

Pics will be post soon.

TYS

thesuperwoman

.Saturday, March 21, 2009 ' 2:06:00 AM Y

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How funny people can be happy and not in the next moment?
How funny people get jealous easily and use words that are hurtful to each other?
How funny when people say I love you easily and make u heart break in the next moment?
How funny when people are talking happily for one moment and next she is crying?
How funny when people are missing their loves ones so much, yet for the next moment they are angry with each other?
How funny when people know they are in wrong, but sorry seem to be the most difficult word to be says out?
How funny when people are so looking forward to tomorrow and tomorrow doesn’t seem to come?
How funny when people broke their promises, the scars have already seemed to leave a mark in the heart?
How funny when people know they do care for each other, but in the end they are still going separate way?
How funny when people quarrel easily and next they make up fast again?
How funny when people know that they are disappointed with each other, but a simple word of ily can make them forget about everything?

How funny? I’m experiencing all of the above.
Ccxn

.Friday, March 20, 2009 ' 9:43:00 PM Y

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Back after 1 week of mia-ing?

Nah. I’ve just manage to come and blog today, because I’m at ah ma house using sis’s laptop. =(
Com is dead, making me feels so sad. 1 week of holiday had just passed and I’ve been spending my time by eating, afternoon nap, eat again and sleep=x Gosh, so no life right? So ppl don’t be surprise to see me getting fatter and fatter=( and I think the only time that are meaningfully spent is when I’m with bf and short meeting with bff :)

Some over due pics:

TYS is coming back tml. I miss her damn lots. More meeting up session with the usual clique=) and not forgetting dinner with ts before he goes oversea.

cYnthia
Counting down 6more days before my baby is leaving =( ily.

. ' 1:59:00 PM Y

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Don’t tell me you need me when you don’t
Don’t tell me you love me when you just want me to be by your side
Don’t tell me I’m so important to you when I already know
Don’t bring lies and sadness again in my life
Because I’m already standing strong and living well.

Sometimes I rather it takes a lifetime for the word miss and love to come out rather than being misuse and say it too often when you don’t really mean it. It ends up a lie.

I said I’ll be strong and here I am standing like a pillar
I’m so happy about my life and gradually I get use to it without you
Like how I always say “life is not all about love”

After the so many weeks of uncountable tortured feeling I’ve been through, all of a sudden I realised I finally got out of it. Oh ya! And for the first time, I got out of it by myself. Told you I’m as strong as Popeye the sailor man! Poo poo~

WAIT~ I want to take back my words! I DUN WANA BE NUN.
I still want to love, I still want to be loved. But I will take my tiny little step to seek till I find my prince charming that won’t cheat on me and will never say goodbye to me. But still I have this little bit of hold back in my heart that condemns the heart seducer.

TYS is at Taipei enjoying
CYN computer pass away and too busy with her love life
SO both will not be blogging.

venessa
this tiny bit of me ache when i see his disappointed face.

.Wednesday, March 18, 2009 ' 4:52:00 PM Y

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Now i'm angry!

venessa

.Tuesday, March 17, 2009 ' 12:33:00 PM Y

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YAY! And finally Kaiqi is willing to drive out and Eileen is willing to come down to meet us all the way from woodland. Slacked around at ECP mac-cafe. Lucky got them! I'm sick of home. After that headed to geylang for durian! woohoo.

Thanks KQ for driving us out

Thanks EE for coming all the way down

venessa

. ' 1:16:00 AM Y

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Peep boo!

Just a last goodbye to all my good friends, comrades, BFFs, papa & mama.

I will be off in like a few hrs time.

But i doesnt have the super excited kind of feeling now. HAHA.

Guess my heart is still in Singapore and my soul is still on my lovely bed. :D

Do take care of yourself and not fall sick.

Everyone will be missed.

iwillenjoymyself

Ciao YeeSin.

.Monday, March 16, 2009 ' 3:02:00 PM Y

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The F&N husband and wife that cooks the worst dishes.

Sweet ingredients more and bitter ingredients not at all.

Now, i start to miss school days.

I'm oh so bored today.

venessa

.Sunday, March 15, 2009 ' 11:07:00 PM Y

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March 14:

当我们同在一起，在一起，在一起。

当我们同在一起真快乐无比。

All had come to an end.

Happy ending in fact.

Thank you all that had made this O&G a success. (:

All the late nights, tough editing, 搞笑 filming, 'shui shui' souvenir, humorous pop emcees, humanitarian competition, engaging dialogue and 有趣的游戏 had all paid off.

Ytd was the most crazy and high BBQ session so far.

All the YWD IICs had revealed the other side of them.

I fully enjoyed those times.

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March 15:

Short meet up with BFFs.

No fancy goodbye.

But a bye that is enough to warm my heart. (:

Goodnight peeps.

YeeSin

. ' 4:43:00 PM Y

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*sometimes i wish i were taller.

The daughter lies to the dad
The dad found out
Caught the daughter red handed
The daughter continue to lie trying to cover the previous lie
But too bad the dad already knows and found out everything before questioning.
The daughter use the loser’s move, CRY and everything is over.

That’s the reason why I hate to lie. =(

venessa flashes back the passion

.Friday, March 13, 2009 ' 8:01:00 PM Y

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the playlist is create by me.
i'm born selfish so that explains why most of the songs i uploaded are from wong leehom lastest album. (don't care whether you all listen anot, i like can already)

I'm meeting ws and friends later for supper. Wont be home today.

I'm meeting eileen and friends tmr for IT fair during the evening. I'm getting harddisk from seagates.

I'm starting to feel broke again. Worst come to worst I might dig out all the money that i hid in the different areas of my house to use it.

I'm so busy doing nothing today. bye

P.S : i hate your drunken face. I hate everything you say and i detest you. fucken. From now on, you're no longer my threat. (pay ts 50cent for using unglam words.)

venessa

. ' 7:00:00 PM Y

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I dislike seeing doctor.

Pls no more drowsy medicine Doctor.

.Thursday, March 12, 2009 ' 10:49:00 PM Y

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FLU BUG ATTACK!

Need to get well by sat.

Off to rest.

. ' 4:30:00 PM Y

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*danceworks last sat

pray braces off my face tonight.
toothache since last night resulted to swollen gums.
bleeding lips. I did not kissed anyone, i just smile too wide till the skin of my lip tear.
FWAH.

What's with the phase home sweet home~ ?
Home is sweet?
I think I’m suffering from diabetes then because I stay home too much.

off to meet the dentist. Ja-ne!

//Edited
I feel so envy when Sam gets to take off his braces just now! While me and Zan have to wait for the next visit. At least I know the next visit will be my confirm day of removing rather then just hoping that I might be removing. Now I have 2 power chain on the bottom instead of one to fasten my process, I seriously hope it works man. Oh my, and I feel the pressure on my teeth now. 2 days of porridge is nothing as long as it closes that damn gap inbetween the teeth.

venessa

.Wednesday, March 11, 2009 ' 7:14:00 PM Y

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Occupation: Hunter, chat bugs
Job scope: Hunt for my adidas jacket, chit chat
Pay: No jacket plus tired legs with never tired mouth

I think I’m the most nerd buyer from blogshop or rather I’m too dependant on eileen for the collections and payment so I hardly does the whole process myself.

So today as usual, eileen sent me a link of this particular piece of clothes. I’m so proud of myself for contacting the person and tying up the meet ups all by myself. Who knows when I was about to leave my house, I then realised that the number I gave to that person was my old number which the line was cut off weeks back. Worst, the person ask for my contact then never give me hers. -.- Freak me out! AIYO, kill me please! I just couldn’t remember my current number!

Sometimes luck really plays a part man. LUCKY that owner of the blog was eileen’s friend’s friend. -.- manage to get her number and informed her. Next she asked me to meet at this café lobby and I happily waited for her outside koufu because I couldn’t see any café and I thought to her koufu = café. Then she called asking where am I, then I realise café lobby is NOT a café. (Now I feel shame to tell people that I use to live in tpy)

I think next time I’ll just get stuff from Jamine instead of blogshops. This incident just shows how stupid I am.

venessa

. ' 2:11:00 AM Y

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I'm flying without wings. Oh Oh. ~

Hu hu. I'm flying to Taiwan (Taipei) next tues.

Knew it only this morning while i was still sleeping and dreaming.

Will be off with my cousins aunt & uncle. My dear parent wont be joining.

This week is packed. I need more time to do my stuff.

More to update at a later time (:

Ciao! Ys

.Tuesday, March 10, 2009 ' 10:03:00 PM Y

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I shouldn't be sad cos it's over
I shouldn't be sad cos it's over
I shouldn't be sad cos it's over
I shouldn't be sad cos it's over
I shouldn't be sad cos it's over
I shouldn't be sad cos it's over
I shouldn't be sad cos it's over

I like the song 脚本. Go and listen ok people. =)
venessa

.Monday, March 9, 2009 ' 6:53:00 PM Y

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STRESS MODE

I spend my whole day researching and researching. I want to hand up something impressive tomorrow. Off to my phuket planning again. I want to seat on huge elephant and I want to wakeboard.

I ate too much button mushrooms just now and i feel that my belly button is popping out!

Note To Self : JIAYOU xuweiling

venessa

. ' 2:18:00 AM Y

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I DONT KNOW I DONT KNOW.

What am i thinking.

Nuts. Crazy. Stupid stuff.

Stop it Ms Tan.

Dont ruin it.

It will be better this way.

Cherish what you have now.

I dont have high hopes.

Just want to know whats next, whats ahead.

Does fairy tales exist? Will dreams ever come true? Let me be bonkers just this night.

Tys

.Sunday, March 8, 2009 ' 10:58:00 PM Y

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My uncle offers me this job to help out in his dive shop to be the planner and plan for people’s dive trips. Tomorrow I’ll be going down to the dive shop to see if I’m smart enough to learn to tie things up like the fights and hotels. I know it’s a rare opportunity for me and I will definitely try my best to work for them. It’s not about the monetary parts but more to an experience that I want to gain out of here.

Enough of staying at home and facing that lag laptop. Although it’s a little late but at least I did something ok! I’ll be heading to IT fair during the weekends to see if anything is worth buying.

Know wad? Adidas red jacket missing in action! Sad diao liao. I went to many other outlets but I couldn’t find the one that I really wanted. HELP ME OUT SOLDIERS!!!

venessa

.Saturday, March 7, 2009 ' 1:42:00 AM Y

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:) I feel happy today.

Went IKEA and go crazy with Jacelyn.

Many eyes were staring at us...

BUT who cares. :D

'Prettiest' piece. HAHA!

2nd happy thing: Successfully breaking thru and share infront of everyone. I feel so brave today :)

3rd happy thing: Meet up with cyn after dunno @#%^& months. :D A pity Vk, TS & Darren not there.

But something make my heart sank. I REALLY HOPE YOU CAN LIVE HAPPILY & HEALTHILY. Dont make us worry. It will not be complete w/o you.

YeeSin

.Friday, March 6, 2009 ' 9:39:00 PM Y

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While sneaking back to the room last night, I saw my uncle hanging this hello kitty bag along the stairway. I thought it was some normal recycle bag that we hang it everywhere to throw out rubbish for convenient purposes. So I greeted him and went into the room. Then he goes, eh the bag is for you, if you don’t like anything inside just throw away. After looking inside the bag there’s nothing to throw because all the stuff are from M.A.C. =)

Why am I feeling so lousy now?! I believe I worth so much more. So what if I cannot control my feelings so what, I don’t want to hid. 爱就爱，不爱就不爱！我不要明明爱又要假装不爱。I don’t want to damage my impression of you, let happy memories stays. They say I’m silly but I think I’m brave to plug out my so damn coward courage to tell you what I really feel. And there I go saying: goodbye lover hello friend. Woohoo I think I grew a little strong again. =)

DriFtiNG AwAY says: anyway, ur leg has fully recovered ritex?

venessa says: lol? leg?

DriFtiNG AwAY says: yups

venessa says: wad's wrong with my leg?

DriFtiNG AwAY says: long long time ago, when u were in sec sch

venessa says: backbone -.-

DriFtiNG AwAY says: opps, i tot leg, psps

venessa says: haha

DriFtiNG AwAY says: now okay le ritex?

venessa says: yea, strong girl lei me

DriFtiNG AwAY says: koh weiling vanessa *venessa, see i rmbed

DriFtiNG AwAY says: wats my name? bet ya dunno

venessa says: something jie one rite?

DriFtiNG AwAY says: zzzzz, frm my email of cuz sth jie

venessa says: your email got meh, no lo

DriFtiNG AwAY : ur class last time got this yan dao darren ritex? hahax

venessa says: lol, my bf now

DriFtiNG AwAY says: opps

venessa says: I mean BEST FRIEND, haha

DriFtiNG AwAY says: icic, i tot boyfren, lols

venessa says: jane's one lei, haha

DriFtiNG AwAY says: icic

venessa says: so what's your name?

DriFtiNG AwAY says: weijie

venessa says: ya luh, correct luh, i wanted to say weijie

DriFtiNG AwAY says: zzzz, lols

venessa says: but i scare wrong

DriFtiNG AwAY says: hahax

venessa says: at least somethin jie confirm wont wrong wad

Now i feel bad for not remembering people's name. -.-

P.S: Thanks eileen for being there. Thanks TS for being there. Thanks BFF for being there. Thanks Josh for being there. Thanks so many for being there.

P.S.P.S: who tell me naval piercing not pain! I had to numb myself by sleeping the whole day today. But it's nice, i like. i think the stud suits my skin color somehow that's why. I feel like having nape piercing now. But i think of the process of the poking through meat to meat, i'm scare.

venessa

. ' 1:13:00 AM Y

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I have been eating supper on Tues, Wed & Today!

Tml meeting the 7 years gang for supper AGAIN.

SHIT! eating late nights for consecutive 4 days means i will fall back to my ugly past soon.

I better do something abt it real soon.

.Thursday, March 5, 2009 ' 1:02:00 PM Y

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I guess the truth is something that really hurting me the most. As in for now, I thought I could take the blow but it blew me too hard till my heart shiver like fuck. But at least VENESSA KOH, you took up that courage to ask something which you hold back for weeks and now you know that it’s time to stop pondering over false hope and breathing so excessively that has no outcome.

*weaken soul cries and wet that damn pillow. Make the maid work.

Give me sometime to get over first. I think I need to sort things out clearly in that damn brain of mine. And then when I eventually forget, that’s when I am ready for fur-lent-sheep. Sometimes I wish I were smarter to handle things.

Limbeh is going to meet limbeh de fur-lent now in town. If you continue to read down, you will know what limbeh is doing for today. (Oh well I feel like slapping myself for saying so much of limbeh, fuck and fur-lent. Tell me I’m still a nice girl after all.)

ee-leens says:
*chey
*you sure you want to make today? hehe
venessa says:
*MAKE
ee-leens says:
*HAHAHAHHA
*if too costly or wad den i wont make uh i tell you first
venessa says:
*pui pui
ee-leens says:
*den you pierce ok
*wad
* you like tt call me confirm nth good
* HAHAHAHA
venessa says:
*sad
ee-leens says:
*i know you sad ..
*but ...
venessa says:
*my heart weak
ee-leens says:
*this kinda thing really canot force
*ur heart weak!?!?!
*like tt you still want to pierce?!?!?!
*later you faint how?!?!?!
venessa says:
*nama
*not weak abt this luh.. ni na ma
ee-leens says:
*HAHAHAHHA
*so you confirm today want pierce izzit
venessa says:
*erm
*scare
ee-leens says:
*-.-
*ok lor.. den we go there eat chua bin can liao
*hahaha
*let you choose.. chua bin or ice cream
*hahaha
*sit down and chill... cmon ...
venessa says:
*tsk
*sian bodoh
*wad time u wana go
ee-leens says:
* now?
venessa says:
*thn?
ee-leens says:
*wad then?
venessa says:
*now lo

P.S: Sorry for being born so selfish. When one were quarreling with the papa last night till mad still can sms me and console me. Another one very worried for the mama, still can hear me cry and comfort me in the damn bloody morning. Better tell me your problems next time HOR! If not see la, limbeh feel extreme useless to the max now.

venessa

. ' 1:25:00 AM Y

Behind the SCENEs!!

I guess mental torment is always worst than physical torment.

And it seems that all my close one is having some difficult times.

My BFFs and my mom.

I think i saw Mrs Neo drop her tears while talking on the phone.

I feel useless sometimes for not being able to help.

To C & V: Don't let the pain of one season destroy the joy of all the rest. Don't judge life by one difficult season. Persevere through the difficult patches and better times are sure to come some time or later.

I will always be there. Thats a promise.

TYS

.Wednesday, March 4, 2009 ' 10:45:00 PM Y

Behind the SCENEs!!

I had just survived out of this super big war that happened in my house a few minutes ago.
Thanks for making this house to be blown down by you, causing no peace from tonight onward.

Thanks for the slap you gave me, (I’ll never forget it.)
The scratch you gave on my hand that causing it to be bleeding right now, (it’s not the hand that is in pain, neither is the heart. I just feel nothing.)
The tears that you had make the whole family cried, (which is enough to fill up a bucket.)
The time that I was planning to study had been destroyed by you, (now I’m simply not in the mood to study.)
You make me shiver in fear right now.
I hate you.

People give me some time to cool down first. I’ll be fine.
Sometime I just wonder, why this kind of things happened in my home?
Ccxn

. ' 1:01:00 PM Y

Behind the SCENEs!!

*ts says my teeth looks creepy and hair looks like guy. tmdtmd!

venessa says:
*really tt jialat meh
[超人阿德]Matsumoto is a lucky guy. says:
*for now
*when u remove your braces u will become chio bu

Sometimes assurance like this makes me fly so high. But often the one i really need it from doesnt provide me. well nvm. Let pray next tue will be bye bye to braces face.

I swear I was heart broken in my dreams just now. I almost say “that’s it” to my life and surrender.

First I dreamt about me on board at work. Facing this unreasonable customer over the phone yelling at me like a monster and threaten to burn down the company. I didn’t know what gives me the courage to continue handling him without hesitation.

*toilet break and I went back to sleep.

Next I dreamt about me staying over at *guy’s place (the guy I like say wong leehom). Then that bloody guy invited my nightmare (say the girl that used to be his fling) over as well. That scene just makes me sad and yet pretends nothing happen and hid in that toilet place and cry. Anyway I look fucking dumb at that dream scene, like a fool.

Lastly, which is the finale of the dream I guess? Recently I keep saying that I’m going to turn into a nun in future and my brother even came up a nun’s name for me (无情). That day KQ was also saying, I might meet her there and be partners in the temple. Then I dreamt that my bunch of kind hearted friends can’t take the fact that I keep getting sad over love so they dragged me to a temple and shaved my hair. I cry to go home but I was locked there and force to be a vegetarian and lead a peaceful life.

Not that I despise nun or what, I do respect them. Just that I cannot see myself being like that in future. I swear this is scary! I DUN WANA BE NUN ANYMORE!

venessa

.Tuesday, March 3, 2009 ' 12:45:00 AM Y

Behind the SCENEs!!

I spend my whole day walking around PS today with KQ. I surrender, I don’t have the criteria of shopping. Heavy handbag and large canvas made walking around even tougher. I’m so weak and tired now. 4 of us walked from PS to fareast to and fro. I swear my legs muscle will be aching tomorrow.

My day wasn’t a good one today. But whatever it is, bad things do happen to good people right? All bad things are happening and it seems never ending. Let tsunami end PLEASE! My tomorrow will be better!

Yes my weakest point is that I think a lot. Maybe like what TS say, if these “thinking” were to be used in other areas like painting or what so ever in my life, wouldn’t it be great? HAHA I also think so lo. I seriously think nothing is worth my effort of thinking, I’ll do what I feel like doing from now on, just don’t care!

Eileen is getting her tattoo and KQ might be doing something also. I’m getting my naval piercing and should I get my virgin tattoo? I’m seriously thinking hard of something meaningful and if I couldn’t, I guess I’ll have to give it a miss because don’t forget I’m coward, I’m always afraid of regretting this and that at the later part of life.

P.S: Now I think everything is more than enough. I’m not sure if this is what I wanted but I guess I’m contented enough to reunite.

Enough of attention seeking, sick of the eye sore. Tired eyes needs to rest.

venessa

.Sunday, March 1, 2009 ' 1:36:00 AM Y

Behind the SCENEs!!

Cough cough cough

I’m getting sick of coughing every now and then. Even after eating my medicine, it did not help much either.

Anyway, went to sentosa with xs, darren and zy today. We didn’t manage to get tanned due to the rain, which made us feel so sad. Nvm. I shall wait for the next sentosa trip :)

Okay. This part is for my love:

Thanks bf for everything you did for me.
I love you baby:)

cYnthia

Finally all projects are done. Now is time to study:(
P/s: i miss tys and ven.