.Saturday, February 28, 2009 ' 4:29:00 PM Y

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One of my big front tooth is aching like hell now. I tripped on the carpet and knocked my mouth to the doorknob early this morning. Now I feel that I’m lame making a fool out of myself early in the morning, lucky no one was there to witness the scene.

I should have gone sentosa with them today! Cramps are my silent killer last night. I feel so lonely on a Saturday. Staring at the computer munching gardenia bread clipped with cheese and mayonnaise. Now I have this craving for double cheeseburger. No doubt, I grew horizontal recently. Just don’t call me a fatty bom bom when u sees me.

Brought my paint last night with KQ at spotlight and now I couldn’t find my German brush. I only brought the primary colors as the whole set of colors are too expensive for me to afford so I just have to use the mix and stir method to come out with the other colors.

TS was kind enough to accompany me to the library later on the get some novels to waste my time off. I guess I should plan my time wisely today, shouldn’t be late again and piss him off. I think I need a hair cut soon, my fringe is hiding my eyes.

I got so many things I want to get! But wait! I almost forgot that I’m sponsoring myself to get a license. So I guess I’m only getting that red adidas jacket to pamper myself.

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Somebody knocked my room door and it’s my uncle asking if I’m hungry. And we order MAC delivery! Its double cheeseburger! Had this chatting session and after much listening, I really think I should stop playing and do something useful. I’m as bloat as a pig now.

Note to self: Don’t fall in love. Reject heart seducer.

venessa

.Thursday, February 26, 2009 ' 10:48:00 PM Y

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Do you know how much I would want to hold on to you?
Do you know how much true heart tale I want to say to you?
Do you know I’m heart broken when I know about things that I’m not supposed to?
Do you know I feel so disappointed in you?

Why do I suddenly feel so far apart? Throw paper balls at me please! Hear me out hear me out hear me out!

I suddenly realized that I’ve shared so many freaking different heart stories to different people. And I’m also amazed that I kept so many secrets to myself which I didn’t leak a single bit to the world even the ones that are closest to my heart.

I think I need to rest now or I’ll be dragging myself up for work again. Bye to the ones who needs to sleep.

venessa
i have this sudden hate for sticky uhu glue

.Wednesday, February 25, 2009 ' 11:24:00 PM Y

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A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z.

Just a random thought that flash pass my brain while taking bus ride.

So wonderful and beautiful that how these 26 alphabets could mix and match to form different words.

Each word gives off all kinds of meaning, emotions be it happiness, sadness, anger, jealousy etc etc.

Words we say, see and write could make someone feel love, make 2 person fall out with each other, make someone motivated.

Humans cant leave without words. Can we?

HAHA! Enough of this random-ness.

In the midst of holiday but..somehow..this weird feeling pop up here and there. Feeling that is beyond describable.

P.S: I MISS MY KOH & CHEW.

TYS

.Monday, February 23, 2009 ' 10:12:00 PM Y

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I sometimes think that among my friends, I have the strongest immune system because I’m hardly ill compared to them. (Exclusive of all those low blood pressure attacks during occasions HOR!)

Anyway, today I started to feel a little weaker. The office air-con is way too cold plus it rains during the break time. I can’t help but to sneeze a little here and dip a little there. Worst of all! Tissue not enough, I swear I’ll bring more tomorrow.

Now I feel that my head is a bit heavier than usual and the body is weaker then ever. Tell me I’ll be alright and I will. Give me strength to recharge the power. Send the angels to make me recover. Make me dream a little dream of you.

P.S: like I said, I’m not fitted to love and I’ll never want to love again anytime soon. Make me never love again. Shut and Die.

Venessa
I love Mr Wong leehom

.Sunday, February 22, 2009 ' 2:33:00 PM Y

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I swear this is freaking AWESOME !
Wong leehom + Westlife = Never disappointing.

My heart stops and skipped many beats when they sing. My goose bums pop out from all the visible pores and OMG I’m in love with this pretty boy. (haha, and he might only be the reason for me not being a nun.)

P.S: Anybody interested to buy paintings from me? =)

venessa

.Saturday, February 21, 2009 ' 10:12:00 PM Y

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SICK SICK SICK

I had been lying in my bed for the whole day with my winnie the pooh :(

The 3 main sick bugs:
1) Headache is causing me to cry out in pain every moment. I feel like there’s something compressing my head, making it feeling so tight and pain.
2) Flu is making me unable to function my breathing properly, making me feel so breathless at time.
3) Coughing every 30seconds definitely not making me feels good at all. It makes me feel so weak now :(

All these 3 added up, makes me lost my appetite for eating. Everything that I ate, I just feel like vomiting out. Maybe that a good thing too, it helps in my diet plan since I’m getting fatter now :)

P/s: I miss my bf. I miss him feeding me medicine and pop me a sweet when I’m drinking my disgusting medicine. I miss him patting my back, to make me feel better after every cough. I miss his warm hugs which make me feel so much better.
Pp/s: Sorry ven for not replying your text and call. I was sleeping. Meet up for supper/ dinner next time can? i'm too sick to meet you right now. Sorry.

Xiu Ni

. ' 9:45:00 PM Y

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Darren: eh siao eh
Kohweiling: ?
Darren: later meet 10.15 at 201 bus stop dun late hor!
Darren: if not my favorite stall will close J
Kohweiling: ok

See la! Nowadays people are so rude! Friends for 8 years some more! Call me siao eh lei! JANE! Attack! I wonder which stall so dumb, close so early on a Saturday night.

And yes correct! Supper at blk 85 tonight! I’m like super hungry now, I only ate 1 egg prata in the morning till now. Can’t wait for later, mince meat noodle, stingray and sugar cane! Oh ya, today is freaking Saturday and I bet CONFIRM sit at the bird shit place again! Now I’m worrying about my food later.

Stop guessing because I’m confuse as well. I’m always unable to express myself OH SO WELL. So just use your clever trick, sing me Spanish lullabies and show the sweetest sadness in your eyes.

I guess my blog post is always so confusing, always so random. You’ll never guess it right! And OMG its 9.40! I should better be off to prepare or Darren’s favorite stall is going to close and he will blame me for the whole entire year.

venessa

.Thursday, February 19, 2009 ' 11:42:00 PM Y

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Yes. I and TS went to Chinese Garden ytd out of the blue moon to the turtle museum. The sun was really unbearable but still the trip was enjoyable.

Many many species.

The one that was circled is the super active Pig-Nose species turtle that flip frantically to get out of the tank and it SLPASH the water on me! HORRIBLE!

But i think i've triger TS anger point to the max. Bcos i'm late once again :X Due to the fact that i overslept and due to unexpected 'big business' arising, i postpone the time close to 1hr late. And he was really piss and blackface all the way. Imagine when i reach and apologise, he just nod his head and keep quiet all the way till we reach Chinese Garden. And i didnt noe he was so piss till half way, he mention that. Ah i really nid to change this bad habit of getting late. And he was right that sorry doesnt solve anything and i really doesnt have good time management. Bad habits die hard!

Well went Bugis today and...was late still. Some pictures to share:

Off to get some serious business done. Bye!

. ' 5:22:00 PM Y

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Everything is so true so right
So interesting yet so fake
Decisions can either make me or break me
However, we still have to make decisions because that is the greatest challenge in life.

My life is not like yours
Everything is planned properly for you
So bright a pathway that awaits your walk through
Unfulfilled tasks that needs your completion
So no matter what, I’ll still gradually fade off one day.

I always say “let my no be no and let my yes be yes”
But too often I say “no” when I really mean “yes”
It took seconds for me to get in and it took hours for me to move on
Never had I not putting in my 100% and giving in my very best.

I’m no longer your confidant
But I’m always there giving moral support.

好不容易有喜欢我的人
好不容易让我喜欢他的人
突然又丢下我的人
说话不算话
破坏了我对你的信任。

Hello! Out of boredom, I looked through most of the pictures in the D drive and I realized that every picture give different feelings and memories. That particular picture might looks so glad so happy so gay but hey look closer, only the one that is in the picture understand how he/she feels when taking that picture and how he/she is feeling at that very moment.

*Look at the picture above, I bet you guys can’t feel what I’m going through at that moment.

P.S: the one that says she doesn’t want to get her license registered and booked her BTT yesterday out of random. Wish me luck for test on 23rd mar. Oh wait, not luck because I’ll be studying for it. =)

venessa

.Wednesday, February 18, 2009 ' 11:58:00 PM Y

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Lover concerto-

Now, I belong to you

from this day until forever,

Just love me tenderly

and I'll give to you every part of me.

Oh, don't ever make me cry

through long lonely nights without us.

Be always true to me;

Keep this day in your heart eternally.

You'll hold me in your arms,

And say once again you'll love me,

And if your love is true,

Everything will be just as wonderful.

cYnthia
P/s: vk stay strong and smile :) I promise to go find you for lunch or dinner when you are working okay? Haha

. ' 5:33:00 PM Y

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Current location: Changi AIRPORT!!!

Yes. I want to fly out of this little red dot. Fly to somewhere where no one knows me and create havoc and do things i dont dare to try. Haha sounds cool huh. Will be welcoming the Soka University of Japan student in awhiles time. I nid to flip my jap bk and recap some verb so i wont sound gugu later. Sayonara minasan. ((:

. ' 2:00:00 AM Y

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*click to enlarge ok... the blogskin doesnt allow my pictures to be big

*i think we take better passport size picture thn RP.. HIRE US!

A moment ago, I was so excited and so serious playing left 4 dead with Eileen, KaiQi and Yijie. This was my virgin time playing such games and it was so thrilling that I’m still imagining some hunter jump onto me and rape me off. Scare me off scare me off. I’m a coward and a noob, I always follow at the back and shoot my teammates instead of those monster and ranked the least kills.

I’m a happy girl today. Don’t know for whatever reasons but still, I feel so much relaxed and happy outside swinging that heavy bag chatting like nobody business as usual. =) Is not that I hate staying home just that I feel staying at home makes my mind ponder a lot which gives unnecessary stress sometimes.

K, and finally I’ve got a job to keep me busy keep me busy keep me busy! And the job only needs me to work for a month! And And And then I’ll be able to get my 2 jackets and agnes B!!! Woohoo… I’m flying high higher highest till I hit the ceiling!

Went for interview then to hong kong cafe for lunch then to park lane for Left 4 dead then to cathay for Yakun then outside cathay make them sick of me chatting non stop then chiong to toilet then train home! (i sometimes wonder why do people blog their routine? issit it boring?)k,Oh ya, they said that I have this weird eating habit of boiled eggs?

K, Cubes block the brain and I don't know what to blog. Shall end. Wan An!

venessa

.Monday, February 16, 2009 ' 8:12:00 PM Y

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Thanks D* for the Valentine’s Day dinner at Swensen with the company of Jiawen and Jasmine for the giant earthquake.

Thanks Teck Soon for meeting me out on Sunday morning and molding me back into what I should be or rather what I am. I just can’t stop laughing when I think of the images of this girl that constantly flashes her armpit hair at the traffic light somewhere near the clinic. HAHA. And Teck Soon keep telling me that girls shouldn’t have armpit hair. OMG. I bet you guys can’t imagine how classic his facial expression was, trying to show that he’s turn off but right in front of the girl he has to act as if he sees nothing. Anyway, he never fail to walk me home be it day light or star light, constantly listening to me. Thanks a thousand million!

Love makes people go crazy and lose their senses. Glad to say I'm awaken and I understand it all, I don't do silly and make myself a fool. I say what I mean it. I took a lot of courage to send what I really wanted to say and yeah I’m very fine now. I just hated the night part but I’ll go through it because I’m venessa koh the one that isn’t afraid of cockroaches unlike the other girls.

I’m so bored.

Library kids = Yes, I went to the library ALONE in the morning and get some books to waste my time off. Back to nerdy koh with that folk specs that your granny wears.

Bimbo kills the limbo = Clean of the witch nail color, trim the nails, squeeze the pimples, and face masking.

Sleeping beauty = I get tired easily recently. I sleep off my day and my night wasn’t spared too. Sometimes I wonder am I really that tired or I sleep out of boredom? Does sleeping beauty come awake in the end? (k wait! stab random off and tune back!)

Play youtube = I guess most of the time I’m online I watch youtube. Haha, not lame ok! So many MV that make me have those “oh I’m touch” feeling, so many just for laugh to make me laugh till burst, so many show that I’ve missed. Oh ya, I’m currently watching that dou niu yao bu yao drama and I think the 心跳MV melts my heart (Mr wong is so hot luh, drool!) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gmh-ig-VX08&feature=related

P.S: I want to get that red addias jacket! I want to get that red man utd jacket! Somebody get me lei, make me happy.

Everything is not fake tales is not lies. It is just something that isn’t fated at all. Loving someone doesn’t exactly mean that you need to have them 24/7. Having them in the heart, having them as part of your memories, having them as friends is actually more than enough.

venessa

.Saturday, February 14, 2009 ' 8:58:00 PM Y

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Happy Valentine’s Day to all couple!

I wanted to meet all my “single” friends and surprise them my energetic SUNFLOWER! But I’m seriously very sorry, plan failed due to some things that happen recently which weaken every single nerve of mine. Next year ok sweethearts?! =)

Oh ya, why sunflower? Because I like its bright yellow that resemble the shape of a sun. Er, although I don’t really know how sun look like but it should be alike to the ones we draw in our drawing paper during school days.

*Regards to TYS post. Yes I will be strong because I’m the sunflower that you guys always look up to. I will continue to be that sunshine that brings laughter and joy, provide warmth when you needed me. Sorry to make you ache when hearing me cry.

I’m really thankful for everyone and everything. I feel extremely embarrass now when I think back of how ugly I look yesterday and what silly stuff I did yesterday. PARDON ME.

Please don’t pity me because I should learn it hard this time round, knowing how to handle things and making things better in future. Sorry for flaring up that typical girl’s bad habit, I will learn to control and do character building. I’m prepared for all consequences of what I did and what I choose, at this moment I could still say I never regret in the first place and if I were given a path to rechoose I'll still walk the same path that I choose intially. I don’t hope for anything more just that friendship we spend time building to remain.

And peeps! Stop worrying alright because the sun will dispel the dark clouds over me. With much love and appreciation to all! =)

P.S: thanks for getting me a donkey from P’s family to add to my collections! Heh heh

Help me get over; seal my wonderful dreams into precious memories.

VENESSa

. ' 12:10:00 AM Y

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Heart clinging tightly.

Once again, my phone dropped and kissed the hard floor!

All thanks to my clumsy hand.

And prior to that, it blacked out the second time.

I just hope that it will remain functioning till the contract end.
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Holiday spells work time.

Esp this long holiday of 9 weeks (2 month 1 week).

:D:D:D

I have a list of things to do in mind.

Learn to sew/cook/wash clothes
Exercise
Hair Treatment
Make a trip to the clinic
Watch all movies and drama that I've missed
Borrow 'IT guide for dummies' if i have the time
Not forgetting to source for SIP company

I think i need 6 months to complete all this. HAHA

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Masculine TAN.

In a blink of eyes, I have been in FRIDAY DINNER comm for a year. Coming up with ideas and topics weekly is not easy. But we have made it! Thanks to MX, lionel, XT, winnie, JK and also all YWDs for taking up the role to be facilitators. Next year Fri Dinner will definitely cause another BANG! :)

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You will be strong. Bcos you are the sunflower.

Sunflower closes when it is dark and open brightly again when sun is up.

Its ok to fall down, what's impt is to know how to stand up and when to stand up.

It pains to hear you cry.

Though dark clouds are over you now, sun will dispel it soon.

Bear through this dark times and sunny time will follow right next.

We will be supporting you through this time.

You have walked through the previous time and so can you now.

.Friday, February 13, 2009 ' 11:12:00 AM Y

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I saw my sorrow cloud once again. Appearing right above me, absorbing energy from me and pouring down sadness onto me. So sudden so hard so harsh on me, I wasn’t even ready to prepare for the worst.

I’m lousy
I’m loser
I’m lousy
I’m loser
Tune on that loser tone for me. Thanks!

I dried my tears, telling myself that I’ll be as strong as pillars. I don’t need the rest and I’ll stand on my own for this very time. But I guess I failed once again. So tired with all these!

I’m afraid that I’ll wake grandma up by crying and making her worry. I ended up using my pillow to cover my face and cry silently to sleep. Yes, I’m good this time for not jogging in the middle of the night to release my sadness. I miss you and I realize that it hurt so much of not having you around. Congrats me that heart wrenching exercise starts for me once again.

I hate fairy tales and happy ending stories. It gives nothing but hope to people because in reality it hardly happens at all. It lied to me since the age when I know about things. I use to tell myself that happiness is in my hands and I will use “me to open up the another party’s heart” and we’ll be in love and “live happily ever after”(fuck it fairy tales). In the end, is either I’m taken for granted or I’m a beggar that begs for love.

Popping heart in my msn nick was to say that I’m excited for the upcoming occasion. But I seriously don’t feel excited anymore. NOT a single bit.

I swear I’m going to be a nun! Ala, that’s what I always say. Tell me it's a dream and wake me up! =( I’m really sad for now.

VENESSa
好想要回到我们的原点
爱情的发展已难以回头却无法往前走
爱让我们流多少眼泪

. ' 12:59:00 AM Y

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Head throbbing.
Chest in pain.
Breathe can’t seem to function properly.
Father is giving me attitude.

All these just come in a sudden and shot me down flatly.
I hate what I’m feeling right now.

P/s: I've finally done/fixing my secret thing.

Cynthia.

.Thursday, February 12, 2009 ' 1:22:00 AM Y

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110109
A day that I’ll remembered for life.
BECAUSE…
My love did something sweet to me today=) by tricking me into a big surprise at the back. And the stupid thing is…. I still go and believe it=x
But in the end baby I’m really touched and appreciated it lots.
There’s only one thing two do three words four you.
I LOVE YOU.

Current mood-SAD:
Due to my itch hand, my secret thing is spoil now. And it went dead on me just now. I got so scared that I tried all ways to fix it back, yet in the end, I only manage to fix back a small part of it=(
ARHHHHHHH. I’m feeling so so so trouble now =(
SAVE ME!

cYnthia

. ' 12:30:00 AM Y

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I seriously think my hair can look better so that I’ll look better.

Met Eileen yesterday for shopping and yes we’re using the same phone now. LG viewty! =) we sign the student plan. Unlimited sms and free campus call. Sound as if I’m doing some advertorial for singtel but I’m not luh. Had to thank her for all the songs chorus so my ringtone will be as colorful as my life. AS IF.

Oh ya, unlimited sms doesn’t mean that I’ll reply your message “more often” because I guess I’ll still be as lazy as ever. I bet you guys don’t know that I use to spend less than 100 sms per month until recently. I seriously like talking on the phone more than smsing, I find it easier lei. So, next time call me lei, I’m not scary although I have this deep man voice.

WOOHOO, Cynthia had 12 stalks of roses for Valentine’s Day. What about you? I’m ok if I don’t get to celebrate V’day with anyone, I don’t feel shame at all or rather there’s nothing to make me feel ashamed about. I keep telling myself that the world is not only about love and I must be strong with what I’m doing.

I seriously suck big time when it comes to bgr. I’ll still give my best though.

昨天真的很伤心。好才有Eileen听我说我的心事。过了那么久，我终于忍不住哭了。我会勇敢的，不会那么容易在哭。昨天她说的话让我想了很多，真的！心里有十分想念的感觉。华语很难写。我就此停笔了。晚安情爱的各位！

VENESSa
Popping heart

.Tuesday, February 10, 2009 ' 2:03:00 PM Y

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Bom!
My phone fail to survive healthily for 2 months.
It BLACK OUT by itself when i was listening to walkman.
The immune system is consider strong for the prolong effect of shuting down by itself. Since 2 days ago it fell from jc's bed with a loud 'BOM'.

Please do not die on me again.

On a brighter note: I'm free now :)

Yeesin.

. ' 10:16:00 AM Y

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We The Kings - Secret Valentine

I have this super short fringe and this shoulder length hair (shorter thn cynthia). Even my brother say I look like ah toot now. =(

My line is being cut off and the new line will resume 2 days later. which means i'm unreachable now. So yeah. I'll send out my number once line resume. SO see me online.

VENESSa

.Sunday, February 8, 2009 ' 6:12:00 PM Y

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I’m so disappointed with you! With your actions! With what you’re thinking! Don’t threaten me, don’t make me fear anymore. Please live your life properly because I’m living mine well. No point giving me back what you’ve owed me because it really doesn’t matter to me anymore.

I’m just so disappointed with your actions and the words you say. Sometimes I hope you would just be so kind in your words. Don’t make me stress over little things because there are more important things in life that is waiting for me. Suicide is silly.

Yesterday, everybody commented that my nail color look like the oldest woman’s nails color that is living in town. -.- so embarrassing. Well, we need to try new things in life rite? HAHA.

TYS: Can’t wait for Friday for you to finish your exams because I’m so lonely everyday, tossing around the bed waiting for food to arrive in front of me. Oh ya, and our date on Saturday! So nervous, I’ll be celebrating with you for the first time after knowing each other for like 8years! Heh, tell me you’re fortunate! Sometimes, really thanks for your messages to make me alive, keep me happy and knock senses to me. Really thankful.

LTS: bring me to kbox kbox! brush up on singing le! study hard and faster finish exams. waiting for you! got so much to tell you. really! my story is ready to make you shake head shake head! =)

KOHWEILING
I'll make it through because i'm strong.

.Saturday, February 7, 2009 ' 11:57:00 PM Y

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hey peeps~

Quick one! Firstly sorry our blogskin is totally cui now and I dun have the time to salvage it! so bear with us for awhile ok?

Next, nice catching up today with sarah, sheena, cynthia, yeesin, xiang sheng, darren, boon yong and jia cheng! WOO~ TS! why i nv see you today!! anyway, pictures will be uploaded soon once i got my cable.

Third, i finally got my long awaited cheque yesterday and i bank it in! BUT! i wrote my account number wrongly! tell me how dumb i am. =( seriously hope they call me and ask me to double confirm.

i'm happy today! woo!
ciao peeps!

VENESSa

. ' 12:19:00 AM Y

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Great commotion after project.

Peer and self evaluation cause up a stir.

I'm thankful for my grade.

Beyond my expectation.

Frankly, i feel that i dont deserve so much.

Remarks from Mr. Pras shocks me.

Actual prove once again.

Many emotions and heart-felt thoughts. Difficulty translating to words. I hoped my decision is right.

.Friday, February 6, 2009 ' 12:29:00 AM Y

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TEMPTATIONS!

If only i resist the temptation of TV and study more.

So i will have be already in my dreamland, waiting patiently for my sweet dream.

If only i resist the temptation to eat.

So i will not have a fatty tummy.

Say i'm fat, ugly, fattest girl in this world 3 times to me

so i have the perseverance to control my mouth away from food uncessarily.

Ms Tan says to sweeties:

Dont get manipulated by him & learn to take care.
The busy period will be over soon & learn to say NO.

.Thursday, February 5, 2009 ' 10:56:00 PM Y

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Projects are killing me. Now all in my mind are all about brainstorm web, curriculum web, 3 lesson plans and rationale. It’s enough to turn me crazy soon. Now I’m still left with 2 lesson plans and rationale=( and the worst thing is… the deadline is due tmr.
And now stomach cramp is killing me off too.
I’m so dead now.
Cramps cramps please go away. Can’t you just wait for another day? :(

P/s: vk. Please take care of urself. Eat more. Don’t every time skip your meal. <3
Yet on the other hand, you are bad=x how could you said I’m silly=( And I only got to know about your BIG secret today. So “steady” of you ar, still can tell me got about 1week plus le.
Pp/s: orh ya vk remember to tell me about your date. And let me shock dao si diao=x
haha

CHEW XIU NI
i'm feeling sooooo bad for neglecting my baby=(
even thought he had said it's alright countless of times. Projects are more important.
But i still feel bad. Bcos you are important to me too:)

. ' 7:52:00 PM Y

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TELL ME I'M NOT WEAK

A moment ago I went BOMP on the kitchen ground. My low blood pressure hasn’t been attacking me for months and there they visited me today. Lucky I was home and somebody is around to rescues me. I seriously hate it when the “feel like fainting” feeling comes to me when I’m outside, I somehow feel embarrass when I faint outside. K, this makes me think back years ago when I BOMP at some coffee shop and was rushed to some clinic then hospital. Really scary experience.

It just came out from your mouth so easily. You don’t understand how much I don’t want to. Sometimes I just wonder how you think of me. You know that I wouldn’t want to see your charcoal face, stressed scientist hair and silent lip. It just makes me feel so uncomfortable. I care so much of how you think.

When I think back about what you told me, it makes me even sadder. I’m so disappointed in your thoughts and words. I don’t know whether when the moment you say that what you were thinking but it definitely affects me!

I was chatting with my 2 sweethearts just now:
TYS was as usual, give good advice when I update her about things! Happy!
CYN was as silly as ever, happily living in her and her boyfriend “lalala” world, ala honeymoon period only. I haven tell you my date, tell le confirm you shock dao si diao.

P.S: I’m so afraid that i'll end up like how i feel for *zr 5 years ago. =(

VENESSa
i need a bed of sunflower to lie on. give me energy to be your sunshine

. ' 12:04:00 AM Y

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Have not been having such feeling for a long time.

Funny takes up a large percentage.

I'm happy for the night.

Goodbye!

Yeesin (;

.Wednesday, February 4, 2009 ' 10:34:00 PM Y

Behind the SCENEs!!

I feel the tightness of my chain of lower jaw teeth. NVM, 我忍！ Just 2 more visits and people u will say bye bye to my braces face. I can’t imagine how I will be like without braces since I’m so use to it. To me braces acts as a support for me to bite ok so without that metal wires hanging across tooth to tooth make me a BOGAY!

I’m broke like fuck and you can’t imagine I used up my ang bao money even before New Year ends. Somebody kill me now. I’m left with nothing for the rest of my life. Haha, ok not funny. Goodbye and goodnight. =)

P.S: sorry too late, my yesterday will not be my tomorrow anymore.

VENESSa

.Tuesday, February 3, 2009 ' 12:07:00 AM Y

Behind the SCENEs!!

I'm not being lazy.

Just pondering about some stuffs lately.

Overloading of issues even with the help of 10 fingers.

CHANGE.

A simple word but requires huge effort and determination.

I'm losing my stand as days goes by.

On other note: CYN had changed her lok kok phone to a 5 mega pixel LG phone.

It's now her turn to get busy with projects.

VK is also busy with her social life.

Lets meet after the busy peak girls.

Ciao. YS

.Monday, February 2, 2009 ' 6:13:00 PM Y

Behind the SCENEs!!

I don’t feel it at all.

I’m so afraid, afraid I’ll get owned once again
I’m so afraid, afraid that I’ll lose you like how I lose the others
I’m so afraid, afraid that I’m not that extraordinary type that you’re looking for
I’m so afraid, afraid that I’ll misunderstand you about things
I’m so afraid, afraid that I don’t understand you enough
I’m so afraid, afraid that you’ll get sick of me one day
I’m so afraid, afraid that you’ll pack off and say goodbye to me.

Told you I’m not good at all these stuff.
Fools pull me down
Loser stack on me
Helpless bury me
Hurt suffocate me.

I love you more than you’ll ever know.
Don’t let parts of me die so I’ll never let go.
Let time prove your love and make me understand.
Make me understand that you’re always mine.

I’m so into UHU glue. =D
VENESSa

.Sunday, February 1, 2009 ' 8:58:00 PM Y

Behind the SCENEs!!

*sometimes, i just got a million of thank you to say to you, but I just don't know how to spell it out through my expression. Posting these pictures mean nothing to readers but to me it's a "HULALA" thing.

I’ve been blogging and blogging recently. Tell me that I’m diligent.
I slept till 4 today, damn tired. I reached home at about 6 in the morning. Really had to thank KKQ for the ride home all the way from CX’s place. I lose money last night. =( I guess I don’t even have the ability to cab anymore. I still feel tired now after 10 hours of sleep. Teary eyes.

I feel as though I’m dying very soon. Cramps are killing me the whole day today. I guess I could scare anyone off with my pale face and purple lips.

9 more days to braces appointment. I'm scare. I already know that I won't be able to remove my braces this coming appointment. =( the gap in between the teeth is not shut yet. hopefully at the end of this month. I want to smile without braces on. =D I'm so getting that red jacket after i got that cheque from janice.

There’s this exciting marathon going on, makes me fly like pretty angels and dunk me down like basketball. I’m happy for all that I choose and if things didn’t turn out well, I guess I’ll have no choice but to accept it. I wish I could draw out my picture for tomorrow, knowing where to get my assurance and where to get my hope. What to invest on and who to depend on. Anyway, I’m still contented that at least, you’re always there for me. Jump for joy!

Sometimes, i just wish you could tell me that i'm important.

VENESSa